okay so a bit of self-reflection here, the moment has come for it, i guess i am known for many different things, one thing i might not be known for is my emotional side.. so i will go a bit out of my comfort zone to share with you some of my personal feelings right now, i will challenge myself a bit with opening up - and we will see how that goes, so bare with me, as this is new territory for me..
right now i am sitting in my hotel room, tv is on in the background, i can hear the noise from the street, i can hear some Tamil being spoken, i can hear the rickshaws passing, but to be honest my thoughts are elsewhere - i relive the conversation that i had today, the passion and the feelings, the believes and hopes that was shared at our meeting today. i feel i am standing at a truly defining moment in my life, tomorrow in roughly 12 hours i will go to the office of Arunodhaya, we will meet with the "core" group of people from the NGO - to discuss our project, and the scope of work over the next 4 weeks, the deliverables, our success criteries and so on, how can you define success criteria for such a project, as long as there will be children abused and exploited we are not successful, as long as children will be put up for trafficking we are not successfull, as long as people are not able to become financial sustainable, we are not successful, and as long as children cant be children - we are not successful, as long as children, all children has access to education we are not successful
... so right now i am feeling lost, i am feeling emotional, i feel humble, i feel a bit guilty, in terms of going into that NGO well knowing that less than 4 weeks from now i will leave back to my comfortable life - having all of those luxurious items that i rarely ever use anyways... - this truly is a challenge for me, right now it feels like i am being weighted down by a mountain, this level of expectations is something they dont teach you in school, at the university or at your management training..puuhhh there is a ton of "what-ifs" flying around in my mind, i guess there is a lot of insecurity, a lot of emotional stress, and also a strong sense of helplessness - a friend of mine once told me "martin you cant carry the problems of the world on your shoulders".. although i know he is right - this is the time for me to step up, take responsibility, leave a legacy, make a difference, and take my load of the work here, Virgil and her team has been doing it for such a long time, so we will go in and make a difference, we will go in and give it our all, we will strive to deliver our maximum, and when all is said and done - we will have been successful.. - but i will always keep in the back of my mind, that this is a project that will never finish until the vision of Virgil and her team is fulfilled ... - and as long as we have leaders like her - there is still hope - she inspires you, so impassionate you, and she motivates you ... she makes the impossible seem possible, and to be honest that is what we all need - i doubt there has ever been a person in my life that has made such a strong impression on me, so fast, as she has - i am left feeling humble that she and her organization has choosen me as their "consultant", and that they feel i am the right person to support and help them, i feel honored and blessed for this opportunity..
so my friends a bit of emotions from me this time around - this assignment truly is a life changing moment for me (for all of us here in Chennai i guess) it is making sense out of all the dots in my life till now, looking back at my life it seems like this is what i have been working towards..
please remember one thing: "to feel that something is impossible, really is just because we didnt try yet - try and you will see that impossible is everything but that" .. i believe in you - believe that you can make a change, become the change.. and i will do the same ...
right now i am sitting in my hotel room, tv is on in the background, i can hear the noise from the street, i can hear some Tamil being spoken, i can hear the rickshaws passing, but to be honest my thoughts are elsewhere - i relive the conversation that i had today, the passion and the feelings, the believes and hopes that was shared at our meeting today. i feel i am standing at a truly defining moment in my life, tomorrow in roughly 12 hours i will go to the office of Arunodhaya, we will meet with the "core" group of people from the NGO - to discuss our project, and the scope of work over the next 4 weeks, the deliverables, our success criteries and so on, how can you define success criteria for such a project, as long as there will be children abused and exploited we are not successful, as long as children will be put up for trafficking we are not successfull, as long as people are not able to become financial sustainable, we are not successful, and as long as children cant be children - we are not successful, as long as children, all children has access to education we are not successful
... so right now i am feeling lost, i am feeling emotional, i feel humble, i feel a bit guilty, in terms of going into that NGO well knowing that less than 4 weeks from now i will leave back to my comfortable life - having all of those luxurious items that i rarely ever use anyways... - this truly is a challenge for me, right now it feels like i am being weighted down by a mountain, this level of expectations is something they dont teach you in school, at the university or at your management training..puuhhh there is a ton of "what-ifs" flying around in my mind, i guess there is a lot of insecurity, a lot of emotional stress, and also a strong sense of helplessness - a friend of mine once told me "martin you cant carry the problems of the world on your shoulders".. although i know he is right - this is the time for me to step up, take responsibility, leave a legacy, make a difference, and take my load of the work here, Virgil and her team has been doing it for such a long time, so we will go in and make a difference, we will go in and give it our all, we will strive to deliver our maximum, and when all is said and done - we will have been successful.. - but i will always keep in the back of my mind, that this is a project that will never finish until the vision of Virgil and her team is fulfilled ... - and as long as we have leaders like her - there is still hope - she inspires you, so impassionate you, and she motivates you ... she makes the impossible seem possible, and to be honest that is what we all need - i doubt there has ever been a person in my life that has made such a strong impression on me, so fast, as she has - i am left feeling humble that she and her organization has choosen me as their "consultant", and that they feel i am the right person to support and help them, i feel honored and blessed for this opportunity..
so my friends a bit of emotions from me this time around - this assignment truly is a life changing moment for me (for all of us here in Chennai i guess) it is making sense out of all the dots in my life till now, looking back at my life it seems like this is what i have been working towards..
please remember one thing: "to feel that something is impossible, really is just because we didnt try yet - try and you will see that impossible is everything but that" .. i believe in you - believe that you can make a change, become the change.. and i will do the same ...
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